Uncle Bill is gone.

Last night i was having this crazy dream that alissa was in the ocean & i was standing on the dock & there was a shark that was swimming around & i knew he was goin to get alissa so i kept sticking my foot in the water to make him come back to me away from her but it didnt work & he started biting her legs & she was screaming & i was screaming & i felt so helpless.. then i get woke up by my phone ringing.. it was mary. the time was 3:38. as soon as i saw her picture on my phone i just knew it had to be something wrong. i said hello, half asleep.. all i heard was screaming & crying.. i couldn't understand a thing she was saying. 'he's dead.. he's dead.. bill's dead! We need will to come take us to the hospital' OMG. i started crying instantly. i looked over & will wasnt in bed. i got up & he was on the couch. i woke him up & tried to hand him the phone but he pushed it away. i said Will please wake up.. its important. i didnt know how to tell him so i handed him the phone. he stood up, dropped the phone, then dropped to his knees. he left. it was 4 am. and i was alone. i wanted to call cicily. i wanted to call rachel. i just needed someone to talk to & i didn't know what to do. i didnt want to wake anyone up so i laid back down with alissa. i couldnt sleep. i guess i finally cried myself to sleep but i kept having these crazy dreams & woke up like every 30 min. will came back at 8 am to get alissa so i could go to work. i just wanted to stay with will. i kissed will, straightened his shirt and said baby you're the only man in the family now. work was slow thankfully. i couldnt get into the swing of things. i felt numb. it was such a smack in the face. i went to granmom's at lunch. mary was outside & i grabbed her & hugged her & we cried together. she kept saying ' i want my brother back, i need him, i want him back, god why did you take him? i just want my best friend back, im not a sister anymore'. my heart was breaking for her. there were people there, friends, people from the church, we all prayed together. another friend brought food. there was so much food. i couldnt eat. i had to go back to work and got so busy. i just couldnt function. but some how i did it. i got off work early & went back to granmom's. Ron was crying, he told me Bill was his best friend, more like a brother. i just can't believe what happened. he was throwing up for 2 days & started hallucinating last night so they called 911 and he had 3 seizures & a heart attack. something's not right about that. he was 60 yrs old. he was pretty healthy. he was always smiling. will is the spitting image of him. that was will's only uncle. his other uncle died a long time ago.. i think like 10 yrs or so. finally we get home & nick comes over. we watched american history x.. it was a really good movie & cried my eyes out at the end. rachie came by after she got off & gave alissa a bath. i am so tired my eyeballs burn. maybe thats from crying. dont know. RIP Uncle Bill~ you will be greatly missed. we love you & we know you are in heaven with the angels and you are at peace smiling down & watching over us.