today is not my day.

i am ready to get off work so i can go home to alissa. she is the one thing in this whole world that can put a smile on my face no matter how bad i feel. i am just having one of those days where i feel like 'when is it my turn to catch a break?' i woke up this morning thinking: 'good morning. you are beautiful. have a great day.' then i get a few pieces of information that turn that thought process into 'everytime i'm on top of the world, something comes along & knocks me right back on my ass.' i cried today after will came by. alissa was in the backseat & she didn't smile at me like normal, she had this look on her face as if she was saying 'why do you leave me?' it really broke my heart. i hate not being able to stay home with her. i loved every minute of it. and she is really not adjusting to all the changes very well. she has been acting up, crying, holding onto my leg & not letting go, even if i walk across the entire house.